This evening Amy and I were making our way through our family videos on YouTube. She was enjoying seeing herself as a baby and looking at toys that have long since been relegated to the attic. But then I put on the first video I ever made of her, a montage of shots of various members of our immediate family holding her as a newborn set to an Indigo Girls track.
And as soon as it came on Amy burst into tears. She wasn’t able to articulate what was wrong, and she was insistent that I didn’t turn it off. But the tears were rolling down her face as we watched it. Later on she said it was because the song mentions ghosts, and that ghosts were scary. But I don’t buy it.
I don’t suppose either of us will ever really know why she was crying. But I can’t help feeling that it is for the same reason that I get a lump in my throat every time I see that video. And even though I’m 28 years older than her I don’t think I can articulate it either. Words aren’t enough sometimes.
It’s been a while since I’ve done any honest to goodness daddy blogging here. But a Daddy Blogger is still how I define myself. Not because it’s what I write about, but because it is what I am about. My family are my reason for being, nothing else comes close.
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on Mar 19th, 2008 at 10:33 pm
Top man.
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on Mar 19th, 2008 at 10:36 pm
I have never been able to watch this video without crying, as I am now. It is so evocative and I think it is one of the best pieces you ever did Dan, thank you.
on Mar 20th, 2008 at 12:50 am
Put that thing on Youtube!
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on Mar 20th, 2008 at 1:07 am
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on Mar 20th, 2008 at 3:59 am
My oldest, Suzanne, has moments like that too.
She will be watching something and then just freak-out and 1) Burst into tears, or 2) just walk over to the TV and turn it off. Well she was about 3 when she did the TV. :)
I concur, I would pass a pint then pass the pretzels!
Keep trying to get the why, it might surprise you.
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on Mar 20th, 2008 at 8:27 am
But it never ends you know, I’m taking my youngest to a college interview today, an interview for her next place of higher education when she finally leaves senior school this summer.
I can’t believe we’ve come this far.
And when they (especially daughters) say “dad, take me here…” you just get the keys out and do it without even stopping to ask why.
Its your job, its being a dad.
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on Mar 20th, 2008 at 12:17 pm
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on Mar 20th, 2008 at 5:07 pm
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on Mar 20th, 2008 at 5:32 pm
this blogging thing is just a phase. i’m sure it’ll pass in 18 years or so.
i’ll remember this post next time you miss a sunday session.
on Mar 21st, 2008 at 2:14 pm
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